I hit send and my knees started to shake. I knew that sending this email meant the likely end to a friendship. A friendship that my heart had made too important. I looked myself in the mirror and wondered if I really was a slave to my emotions. Can't I ever talk to a guy … Continue reading The End of Things
I've felt blocked for nine months. Unable to let words come out. Scared of what you might think. Fear has driven me behind closed towards. Fear had kept my mouth shut. But at some point we have to get out of it right? The funk can't last forever right? The fog has to lift. I … Continue reading Blocked.
I can see myself sitting across the table from you, eating fish skin and sharing Jesus. Someone you'd never even heard of before. I remember your innocent questions... the questions that only a journalist major knows how to ask.
That feeling... It was the same feeling I got when the boy who took me to my first dance was too shy to actually dance with me, only to find other girls who suited him better. I had the same feeling in the pit of my stomach when I found out my best friend was … Continue reading Where I leave you behind (pt 2)
I've tried to tell this story from every angle, I've tried to make it tell the truth, I've tried to fit it around my own broken self to cover up my mistakes but I can't tell the truth without indicting myself. The story can't be told in way where I don't walk out as half … Continue reading Where I leave you behind (pt 1)
I'm going to tell you stories, I'm going to crack open my soul and show you what's inside. No promises, no guarantees on clarity, all I can promise is the messiness of myself. It had to leak out somewhere and lucky you, you get to see my humanity. If you've found me... good job! If … Continue reading We the Raw